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as the days go by...the time flies..with meekly moving my eyes, just to sustain my dropping tears...i can see my life unravel before me. i wasn't moving, restless..laying down in my bed for two days, i never known loneliness, so deep that it consumed me. my body somehow cooperate, i wasn't hungry, i wasn't longing for anything. i only want to stay put, to feel, to stay away from anything, anybody. to cry, to pray...
i am still breathing, but with the pain that lives inside me feels like i am dead. 
the blood slowly pools down, i never felt pain, all can hear was the beating of my heart so loud, so loud that i stop all the reasons...i just want to cover up the pain inside me. i am crazy, i am miserable. it is hurting me too much. to much that i am not scared anymore... seconds into minutes, deeper and deeper, the blood bathe the floor, consciousness eluding me...rejection, pain, blame, insults, sarcasm all consumed me... as the pain shouting inside my head, my body is giving up... i still never felt the pain from outside...i am breaking into pieces... my sob into crying... i was alone, just so alone that i don't how they found out... i opened my eyes with another eyes crying...''what have you done? what have you done?''  what have i done? i just merely wanted to end things. to be gone. i am giving up...
until when again? until when it stop? until when? closing my eyes wishing it will never open anymore.
can he feel me? no... i am alone.  always been alone.